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| This week is definetly one of my bad ones. The Feeling of always being alone is whats the hardest I hate being left with my thoughts and emotions I dont wanna hear or feel it anymore. Confusion is all I feel now along with my whole life is wasting away in it makes me SICK Theres so much I want to Accomplish this Year/ Summer but I need my friends helps n the rate thats going most of them r so caught up with themselves or their Relationship to remember who I am. Fuck Em All The people who r important to me They know who they is the rest Im Out Yall Had your Chances!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| Today has been one of my Good days yesterday wasnt so great but I stuck thru it and it eventually got better last day of College yay now gotta do my Externship and im done YAY!!!!!!!!! anyways mind is racing bout all sorts of stuff so im just keepin myself busy as usual hopefully I get some partying in this weekend. Confident oh yeah im hella feeling it lately Independent you know it................. | | |
| I f I could explain how I feel at this moment I probelly wouldnt be typing on here. Rethinking of my relationships I though thats what would make me happy but then the thing that I thought would make me happy seems to only be pushing me further into the Tornado. Smile sure I smile whenever someones looking God if they could only see inside me they would see. Guys think they can treat Women however they want but I dont see that as an Independent Women and seeing the guys around me its better to b the player or your ass will get played. Love doesnt last forever Temptations are to high out here. Relationship people just dont understand that you gotta let them explore and find themselves or there going to end up cheating on u in the end. Given up on relationships and marriage at this point He knows I love him but I have to find myself and what makes me happy before I can make the relationship happy again. | | |
| Its funny how the person who means the world to you can say the meanest things to you and you feel rite then and there what a real piece of shit you are. Its funny how in all my last relatonships Ive always been called a Cunt, Bitch and how theres something wrong with me but yet hes the one thats supposed to be different the one that I run to wen im afraid not run from him because im afraid if you asked me where I wanted to b this year it sure wuldnt be here smtimes if I culd just get away and think away from him maby It all wuldve been different maby if everyone wuldve never left me and still had my life I had almost 1 year ago maby everything wuld be different in I wuldnt b here crying my heart out to the Internet cus its the only one that will listen and not Judge me and think im crazy like everyone else thinks I am. | | |
| Ive learned that the people you think are the best to you always screw you over and the people you never gave a chance turn out to be ur best friends does anyone else find that weird? How come you have to b in a certain group and cant chill wid people outside? theres alot of fake people but you r on your own to find out wo you really are I must say Im almost there.....2007 should be better least school is sim pretty much class president I help out wid finding fun stuff to do and the rest of the class back me up 100% Im ion the yearbook committee and also trying to put together our 1st school dance with a queen and king of course I couldnt do all this with the help of my friends and my mommy and OF Course the tesachers.....5 more months and im outa of school but of course not for long College and Modeling here I come.......In the last 2 months gotten my 2nd car my crx just wasnt all together yet it still needs alot of loving so I have My Acura and I got my 2nd Job and the Bookstore it s really hard but im catching on I couldnt think of a better place iwould like to b rite now Moikayla is crwling and bout to walk and turn 1 thats just amazing Bryan and I just passed our 2 in a half year together and just defeated my first women Doctors Appt must I say Anymore? | | |
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